Thursday, January 15, 2009
Recharging My Faith
Today, I interrupted my regularly scheduled life to recharge my faith. I sat tucked into one corner of my sofa for hours, Kleenex, green tea and warm cat at hand. I allowed myself to simply be. I varied between classical music and silence, warm cat in my arms and warm cat on my feet, waves of tears and waves of calm. Slowly, my sense of self rose to the surface. Stillness is such a swift path back to balance. In the stillness and be-ness and me-ness, Wisdom whispered. She told me many things about loving myself, nurturing myself and being brave. She told me to live my life to the fullest so my Mother could leave in peace when ever it is she decides to go. She told me to use this opportunity to openly offer love to the world. She told me to be shiny. But the most significant and resonant thing she told me was this: The greatest love I have yet to experience is coming. It already lives inside of me, but it is going to be drawn out by purposeful circumstances. I will be amazed at its curative strength. I will be amazed. Wisdom said to prepare myself. And to let it come.