i lay on the floor by her new bed.
in the dark, i count her breaths.
she is still here with me.
i guard her.
and hold her steady at the edge.
i am restless.
i grope in the dark for her prayer shawl,
the colors of earth and midnight sky,
knit and prayed over by friends.
i lay that earth and midnight sky underneath me.
only then do i sleep.