Tuesday, October 13, 2009

All That I Leave Behind




I have so much to tell you; of Turkish streets and shops and food and the non-stop, flawless weather. Of the sea, my newly beloved sea. But it will all have to wait. Because today, this bitter and sweet today, I leave for home. Yet, I also leave home behind.

I leave the cats, I leave the boats, I leave my Gypsy King. But I take with me a handful of blue Turkish tiles, tumbled by the Marmara tide. And a heart so full it fills the sky.

To be continued...

Sunday, October 11, 2009

Career Change


My new friend, Yasmine, thinks I can do it. She thinks I can join her belly dance troupe and make scads of money like she does. Just a few lessons, she says, and I'll be jiggling and swaying my way to new found fortune and fame. She recommended the sapphire blue bead-dangled bra and veiled bikini bottom. To highlight my hair and distract from facial hot flashes. (No one will be looking at my face anyway, she says.) But I have to stop eating so much in Turkiye~love handles evidently get in the way of prosperity~ and I have to be totally comfortable with dressing half naked in public. Oh, and I'd have to switch to working at night. Wear more make-up. Tease my hair.

And lose the man.

It's bad for business,she says.

Well.

On second thought, I really do enjoy eating, and sleeping in the dark is preferred. (I'm usually yawning by nine). Gobs of make-up isn't my thing, and geez, I hate to exercise. But mostly, losing the man is no option. Not after it took so long to find him.

So, to hell with fortune and fame.

To hell with strange men groping me.

In beads and blue, one man will do.

Gypsy Flower Market~ Istanbul, Turkiye





The Gypsy Flower Market~ an oasis in the concrete desert. Being a lover of flowers, I had to go.

For Don, Janet, Aimee and Kasia Blue. xoxo

p.s. Just in case I return, I warn you all, I will be sporting headscarves and skirts and singing traditonal songs while playing with flowers.

Saturday, October 10, 2009

The Gypsy King and Me





I am here, by the sea, because of many things. Patience. Faith. Fortitude. Learning the hard lessons of listening to my own instincts, regardless of outer contradictions. Above all, allowing my true self to rise to the fore. This being by the sea is a story long in the making. Yet, it has only just begun.

You will find very few references in my previous five hundred something posts to the long-in-the-making part of this story. I can be quite private in my transparency. But for more than 2 and a half years, it has been there, this story. It has shaped me, filled me, and burned me to the ground. It is a love story beyond even my own imaginings. It is, however, not easy.

But who said love is easy? It is the hardest thing to do in the world on some days. Even sunny days by the sea. Make no mistake, my phoenix feathers have been sopped by tears now and again amid the scads of gold around my neck while dining at a palace, amid the bear hugs ( he is a bear), amid the body-guard protection while weaving through Istanbul crowds, amid the cultural differences between the Gypsy King and me. Tears. During the adventure of a lifetime.

Each tear is discussed at length and each discussion leads me deeper into understanding- of myself and how ready for love I really am. Not small, cautious love, not skim-the-surface love, but love as deep as the sea. The Gypsy King and me.

Friday, October 09, 2009

Thursday, October 08, 2009

The View From Here- Adalar, Turkey

Lunch.
The men's club. Starting at 7:30am. Turkish tea and backgammon.
Shoe shopping.
Produce market.
View from the rooftop lounge.

Wednesday, October 07, 2009

Tails From Buyukada





Yes, of course, the view from the shores of Buyukada, quaint port on the small island of Adalar, is gorgeous. Yes, the food and the minute shops crowded with wine and shampoo and jars of Nescafe are good and fascinating. The moon over the sea, the dancing palm trees tucked here and there, the cascades of purple flowers dripping from balconies; yes, of course, they catch my breath and light my eyes with fascination. But the tails, the plethora of tails wagging and waving, are what have stolen my heart in Buyukada.

To my delight and worry, the Turkish islands are brimming with stray cats and dogs. They lay on sidewalks, street corners and the very middle of vehicle prohibited lanes of tar. (Need a ride to the far reaches of Adalar? Hire a horse cart.) The cats, especially, are everywhere. If you dine at an outdoor cafe, you will also dine with cats. Dine indoors and you will dine with cats as well. They are each on the prowl for tasty possibilities. And dear God, did they find a sucker in me.

Each cat is more precious than the last, and stand back when I've spotted one with goopy eyes or fresh-scarred nose or half a missing ear. I'll give them most of my lunch. Taking my nutritional needs into his own hands, the Gypsy King bought extra lunches so I could not only fill my own belly, but cut chicken kabobs into baby-sized pieces and feed the troops at my feet.

Because the cats and dogs are meant to entice tourists to stay longer and part with more of their tourist dollars, the shops sell bags of pet food. So, me being me~ boldly stamped with 'sucker for animals' across my forehead~ I trolled the streets at nightfall with the ever protective Gypsy King and a 5 kilo bag of "Alice Snob" cat food, feeding all comers. Let me tell you, they came. Each mewling furry face got a handful and a "just look at how cute you are" and a "bless your little life" before bed. Even as we left the island behind this morning, a cat food trail marked our way to the ferry.

I worry for the animals of Adalar. But I needn't. Each dog is tagged in its ear and water is found in bowls along the lanes. They disappear at night to what I hope are safe places. The cats, for the most part, look fed and like cats, they argue on the streets at 2am. But it seems that the good people of Buyukada have agreed to care for these charges. They are a part of life on these Turkish isles. And a sweet tale to carry in my heart.

Monday, October 05, 2009

Postcards From The Marmara Sea





Having the best time. Weather is great. Sunny and seventy. Am eating constantly. Had to get rid of belt. Beautiful sites. Crazy drivers. Love it all. Wish you were here. The Gypsy King of Babylon sends his very best.

xxoo

Sunday, October 04, 2009

Turkish Delight





We can be changed by many things; travel being one of them. When travel is combined with wholehearted openness to the new, the change within can be profound. When travel and openness are combined with the force of love, the change within is life altering. Irreversible. Hold-onto-your-hat-you-will-never-be-the-same. And you will be so damn glad.

So when the stars aligned and courage was gathered, the Gypsy King of Babylon sent his magic carpet to fly me half way around the world. I got on. I flew. I landed in a strange paradise. I was changed from the first breath of salted air. Now, after almost 4 days of basking in the warmth of Turkish delight and the protective force of Gypsy love, if you thought you knew me, you no longer do. I, too, no longer know myself. And I am so damn glad.

Friday, October 02, 2009

Full Moon Island

There is a rooftop under a full moon, overlooking the sea. This rooftop is on the island of Adalar in the calm waters of Marmara. On this rooftop, tea is served. Not any tea, but tea that holds a spoon suspended it is so strong. Always served in a small glass cup. This robust nectar tastes best while sitting on the ledge of the rooftop, stars and moonlight reflected in its dark water. I am sitting on that rooftop. I am sipping and savoring that dark water. I am far from home. Yet.I am home.

I am nowhere and everywhere. I am American, I am Turkish, I am Iraqi. On this island, I am everyone. On this island, I am.

Taxis with inches to spare in their passing, prayer calls blaring from suspended speakers, ashtrays filling at astounding rates, people and people and more people moving, moving. Red flags with sickle moon and venus waving, waving. Water and ferry boats, fishing boats, cargo ships and cruise ships. Impossibly narrow how-can-these-be-two-way streets. Fish, fish, did I mention fish? Minarets. Short skirts, long sleeves, head scarves. Leather. Carpets. Whirl on one leg with me. Insatiable, insistent, Istanbul.

I see it all while sipping mud tea from a rooftop on full moon island.